"<p>I can control myself in all my actions and thoughts and in every moment of my life. Not in love: here you have to give yourself up completely. (...) I cannot give myself up just like that, without anything further. There is no way I can get myself back. The one I get back is no longer who I was. It is more, richer, simpler, purer and more divine. This is the secret of love. I must be lost and destroyed.</p>"