Faith

"The faith according to the Catechism. In fact: to feel true, etc., what the Mother Church teaches. Because I can hold it even if I don't feel it to be true, but then I am lying. And if I hold to be true what I feel to be true, then I am honest. Is there no contradiction in this: 1. Faith is a gift from God. 2. He who does not believe will be damned. So if God does not give me a gift, I am damned: I suffer because I have no gift."