"<p>Sometimes, for moments, I feel as if everything that happened and didn't happen to me in my life, everything that I wanted, that I was cowardly or comfortable or weak for, is now under the roof. In such moments, I see myself and the flow of my life as a big system. (...) I feel like someone who wakes up from a deep, sick dream and wakes up and sees that he was beaten on the head long ago and robbed and was lying unconscious; and the robbers run far away with the treasure.</p>"